You know, I wanted to be. I thought if I worked hard and stayed optimistic, I'd be able to escape with everyone. That I could save everyone and be praised for my efforts. That for once in my life, I'd accomplish something that no one could take credit for. But once Mac died, I doubted myself. I bent. Then when Callie died, I broke. Wiitney brought me back, but I showed my true colors then.
I'm not strong enough to be a leader. I'm too emotional. Too weak. In order to get out of this place, you all need to be strong. But where I failed...others will succeed. You already have someone who can pull you back in and make you see things different, Alastor. [Turning to Neph.] Someone I foolishly underestimated.
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[Her cold gaze turns to Alastor.]
You know, I wanted to be. I thought if I worked hard and stayed optimistic, I'd be able to escape with everyone. That I could save everyone and be praised for my efforts. That for once in my life, I'd accomplish something that no one could take credit for. But once Mac died, I doubted myself. I bent. Then when Callie died, I broke. Wiitney brought me back, but I showed my true colors then.
I'm not strong enough to be a leader. I'm too emotional. Too weak. In order to get out of this place, you all need to be strong. But where I failed...others will succeed. You already have someone who can pull you back in and make you see things different, Alastor. [Turning to Neph.] Someone I foolishly underestimated.